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Thanks to The Advertising Slogan Generator:
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7) Just what the Lei ordered
8) Dial down the Ty
9) The Missy of Confidence
10) Reach out and touch Sarah
11) Aaahh! Mason!
12) Make someone happy with an Ekim
13) Pride of the Tunick for over a hundred years
14) Is it live, or is it Kris?
15) Why can't everything orange be Laura??
16) I can't believe it's not Kaylee
17) Plop, plop, fizz, fizz, oh what a chiya it is!
18) Big chocolate RIa
19) See the face you love light up with Jersey
20) If you like a lot of Dain on your biscuit, join our club
21) I wish I were a Nick weiner
22) Double the pleasure, double the Rachel
23) Ant-the appetizer!
24) Happiness is Brandon-shaped
25) Becky makes everything better
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| update on life. . . |
[13 Mar 2005|09:00pm] |
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Wow, it's definitely been a while since I've put in an entry. Sorry everyone, just been so busy with school and all. But anyways, I'll be taking the ACT in April, and the SAT in June, so that makes me feel somewhat better. My grades are doing ok, they're not perfect, but what's perfect anyhow? At least they're not D's and F's anymore, now it's at least C's and up. I have a nice B+ in Environmental Science and that makes me feel special.
Spring break is next week, as in the week after this one...I hope to go to Ursinus to see all my college friends while visiting Lex, but we'll see based on her schedule. I'm still looking for a job, because we all know I really need the money, for paying for my cellie, my cigs, and well just about everything else that's an essential to my life.
Oyyyy I'm bored. I wish I could have seen Dain today, yes that's right me and him are still going strong! We've had a few bumps to slow us down a bit but we're still together....surprisingly enough...I think anyways. I thought for sure after the 26th, and that next weekend he would've left me for sure. I was wrong. Maybe he really does love me as much as he says, and as much as I love him. That's great for me, I guess. But I still anticipate that one day; that dark dreadful day where we say goodbye...as if it's tomorrow. I don't know if it's ever going to come, and I hope it never does, but I still wonder...and ponder...
Okay, well I should go now, get ready for bed I need my "beauty" rest. Because to some, I'm actually beautiful, not to me though. I'll always be self-pessimistic. It's the way I am so deal with it. Oh well. Goodnight everyone.
Love always,
Aly
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[28 Feb 2005|04:29pm] |
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10 Things I'm Sorry About
I'm sorry if I've hurt you
Taken my anger out on you
Pushed you away
Or made you feel like shit
I'm sorry for the way I am
For the way I act
And for the way I talk
I'm sorry for being ignorant
Obnoxious, rude and selfish
I'm sorry you feel like you've been played
Like I led you on
And changed in a swift breeze
I'm sorry for making you feel unexistent
Telling you I care
Then not proving it
By showing it
I'm sorry for not telling you
What's really bothering me
Why I did those things
And reasons for this bullshit
I'm sorry for calling you names
For hitting and kicking you
For denying you what you deserve
I'm sorry for not being there
When you needed a friend
To talk to
And to catch your tears
I'm sorry for being dishonest
If you never forgive me
I shall understand
I'm sorry for the way things are
The way they were in the past
And the way they have been lately
Honestly, I'm really fucking sorry
About anything and everything
I can't say I'm sorry enough
To truly mean how I feel
Forgive me or not
At least you know the truth
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| SURVEY...for guys.....and gurls.... |
[25 Feb 2005|12:08pm] |
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FOR GUYS:
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF UR GURLFRIEND. . .?
::Cheated on you?::
::Got pregnant with someone else's baby?::
::Got pregnant with your baby?::
::Wanted to have your baby?::
::Wanted to have an abortion?::
::Wanted to break up with you?::
::Wanted to marry you?::
DO YOU. . .
::Love her?::
::Respect her?::
::Trust her?::
::Worry about her?::
::Care for her?::
::Want the best for her?::
::Want to be with her forever?::
FOR LADIES:
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF UR BOYFRIEND. . .
::Cheated on you?:: id be beyond pissed at him
::Got another chik pregnant?:: id be pissed
::Got you pregnant?:: id have the baby
::Didn't want the baby?:: dont believe in abortion
::Wanted you to have his baby?:: id agree
::Wanted to break up with you?:: id be heartbroken
::Wanted to marry you?:: id say yes
DO YOU. . .
::Love him?:: very much
::Respect him?:: definitely
::Trust him?:: yes
::Worry about him?:: ohhhh yea
::Care for him?:: well duh
::Want the best for him?:: yea
::Want to be with him forever?:: i wish
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| depressed now.... |
[05 Feb 2005|08:00pm] |
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He doesn't love me
If he did
He wouldn't do this
He would talk to me
He would call
He wouldn't lie to me
He would trust me
As I trust him
Maybe I was wrong
Blinded by my own ambition
Maybe I can't see him truly
And what's really going on
Maybe his heart lies somewhere else
In someone else's arms
I don't know
But hearing that, hurt bad
I shouldn't,
But I'm going to ignore him
Not going to talk to him
Going to pretend he isn't there
Isn't a big part of my life
When he really is the center
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[04 Feb 2005|05:15pm] |
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What's your ideal drug?
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 What Natural Disaster are you? Take the quiz!
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| long-ass SURVEY |
[09 Jan 2005|10:14pm] |
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[.01.] name: Alyssa
[.03.] last name: **evil laugh**
[.04.] nickname(s): Aly, Lyss, Lyssa, Aly, Cherry, Bitch, etc.
[.05.] gender: Female
[.06.] birthday: 10-05-87
[.07.] height: 5'8"
[.08.] hair color: Dark brown w/ natural red highlights
[.09.] eye color: Caramel
[.010.] do you wear glasses or contacts: umm, supposed to wear glasses but i left them at ryans' house on my b-day and he wont give them back
[11.] do you have braces: no
[.012.] is your hair long or short: long....probly gonna chop it off tho, it comes out on its own so much
[013.] where were you born: Iowa City, Iowa
[.014.] current location: Flourtown, PA
[.015.] zodiac sign: Libra
[.016.] how many languages do you know: 2.5
[.017.] what laungage do you want to learn: gibberish....again
[.018.] bad habits: smoking, negativity,
[.019.] piercing you have: 2 on left ear
[.020.] piercing you want: eyebrow
[.021.] tattoos you have: none
[.023.] today: sunday
[.024.] today's date: january 9
.025.] the time: 8:12pm
[.026.] ready for a bunch more questions: mmm, i guess....
F A M I L Y
[.027.] mother's name: Margaret
[.028.] father's name: Anthony
[.029.] brother's name: none
[.030.] sister's name: Alexis
[.031.] favorite aunt: none
[.032.] favorite uncle: Doug
[.036.] worst relationship: oh fuck i dunno
[.037.] best relative: Jacky
[.038.] do you get along with your parents: sure, you keep telling yourself that...
[.039.] does anyone in your family understand you?: hmm, based on the last question...dont you think its obvious?
[.040.] do you have any pets: yes
[.041.] what are their names: Alley, Dave, and Lucifer
[.042.] what kind of animals are they: 2 cats, one anole-mine!
[.043.] are you still in school: yes
[.044.] did you drop out: No
[.045.] current gpa: fuck, probly somethin low
[.046.] favorite grade: None
[.047.] least favorite grade: All
[.048.] favorite teacher last year: Trainer (NAZ-D)
[.049.] least favorite teacher last year: shit, i dunno
[.050.] favorite subject: music
[.051.] least favorite subject: BIO
[.052.] do/did you buy lunch or bring it: buy, or not eat period
[.053.] play any sports on the school's team: uhhh no
[.054.] do/did you do any extracurricular activities: marching band, indoor color guard
[.055.] are/was you popular: umm, if everyone knowing you by rumors they "hear" and wanna kill/beat you up means being popular, then yes
[.056.] favorite dance: none
[.057.] favorite memory: From school?! ARE YOU NUTS?!
[.058.] favorite memory you want to have: **slipknot-"vermilion pt. 2"**
[.059.] least favorite memory:
[.060.] most humiliating moment:
F A V 0 R I T E S
[.061.] number: 13
[.062.] letter: S
[.063.] shoes: fuck me boots, hooker boots, vans, timberlands
[.064.] saying(s):
[.065.] TV show: Charmed
[.066.] sport: badminton
[.067.] vegetable: black olive
[.068.] fruit: strawberries
[.069.] movie: no fav's
[.070.] magazine: sports illustrated swimsuit edition
[.071.] actor:
[.072.] actress: Sandra Bullock
[.073.] candy: REAL rock candy
[.074.] gum:
[.075.] scent: Axe
[.076.] candy bar:
[.077.] ice cream flavor: mint choc chip
[.078.] color: black
[.079.] season: summer...bikini weather oooooh
[.080.] holiday: Yule
[.081.] band: no fav band...i eclectic sweetheart
[.082.] singer: Axel Rose
[.083.] group: no favs damnit!
[.084.] rapper: need i repeat myself?
[.085.] type of music: ALL
[.086.] thing in your room: my lizard
[.087.] place to be: Away from home
[.090.] junk food:
[.091.] overall food: italian
[.092.] store: hot topic
[.093.] hangout: Anywhere away from home
[.094.] fast food: popeyes
[.095.] restaurant: Friendly's
[.096.] shape: Dodecahedron
[.097.] time of day: The later half of a sunset, beautiful
[.098.] country: Scotland
[.099.] state: California
[.100.] boys name: Jared
[.101.] girls name: Chloe
[.102.] mall: Franklin Mills
[.103.] video game: HALO
[.104.] shampoo: tea tree
[.105.] board game: life
[.106.] computer game: YOU DON'T KNOW JACK!
[.107.] car: MR-2
[.108.] music video: dont have favs damnit!
[.109.] curse word: fuck
[.110.] word: yogurt
[.111.] month: july
[.112.] cartoon character: Bugs bunny
[.113.] scary movie: Resident Evil 2
[.114.] team: phillies
[.115.] possession: ummm
WHATS THE FiRST THiNG Y0U TH0UGHT 0F WHEN Y0U HEAR..
[.116.] eminem: white boy
[.117.] dog: bark
[.118.] hot: hot like fire
[.119.] britney spears: blonde
[.120.] nsync: out of sync
[.121.] real world: controversy
[.122.] orange: orange you glad i didnt say banana?
[.123.] choice: lack of
[.124.] fuck: ...i want....
[.125.] bisexual: me
[.126.] black: sexy
[.127.] icq: blahblahblah
[.128.] insane clown posse: pussy?
[.129.] linkin park: crawling
[.130.] jack: daniels
[.131.] rainbow: brite
[.133.] cucumber: *no comment*
[.134.] shark: beast
[.135.] lifehouse: Hanging By a Moment
[.136.] bat: baseball
[.137.] leather: chains
[.138.] whip: cream
[.139.] america: bush sucks
[.140.] water: desert
[.141.] volcano: lava
[.142.] rock or rap: either or
[.143.] rock or pop: either or
[.144.] rock or r&b: either or
[.145.] rock or metal: either or
[.146.] rap or pop: either or
[.147.] rap or r&b: either or
[.148.] rap or metal: either or
[.149.] pop or r&b: either or
[.150.] pop or metal: either or
[.151.] r&b or metal: either or
[.152.] linkin park or limp bizkit: both
[.153.] tool or korn: both
[.154.] selena or jennifer lopez: both
[.155.] hot or cold: hot
[.156.] winter or summer: summer
[.157.] spring or fall: spring
[.158.] shakira or britney: shakira
[.159.] icp or eminem: both
[.160.] marilyn manson or rob zombie: both
[.161.] kittie or garbage: both
[.162.] mtv or vh1: both
[.163.] buffy or angel: both
[.164.] dawson's creek or gilmore girls: BOTH
[.165.] football or basketball: both
[.166.] summer olympics or winter olympics: both
[.167.] skiing or snowboarding: Snowboarding
[.168.] rollerblading or skateboarding: blading
[.169.] black or white: black
[.170.] orange or red: red
[.171.] yellow or green: green
[.172.] purple or pink: pink
[.173.] slipknot or mudvayne: slipknot
[.174.] hot topic or pac sun: hot topic
[.175.] inside or outside: outside
[.176.] weed or alcohol: alcohol
[.177.] cell phone or pager: cell
[.178.] pen or pencil: pen
[.179.] powerpuff girls or charlie's angels: charlies angels
[.180.] scooby doo or dino: dino
[.181.] dragon ball z or pokemon: Dragon Ball Z
[.182.] star wars or star trek: star wars
[.183.] tattoos or piercings: tattoos
[.184.] prep or punk: punk
[.185.] slut or whore: Slut
P R I V A T E L I F E
[.186.] do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: yes ma'am
[.187.] do you have a crush: ...hehe wouldnt u like to know...
[.188.] do you love anyone right now: mmmyea
[.189.] have you ever been in love: yesm
[.190.] how many people have you liked: ...lost count...not to be cocky
[.191.] who was your first crush: andrew in little explorers
[.192.] how many hearts have you broken: 2
[.193.] how many people broke your heart: .....
[.194.] best quote to sum up love: ...
[.195.] so what is your bf/gf/crush like: theres a reason they call it a "private" life
[.196.] do you have a picture of him/her: yeah
[.197.] please post it if you do: umm, no
[.198.] do you have a picture of yourself: yes
[.199.] please post it if you do: see 197
[.200.] do you go by looks or personality: personality comes first
[.201.] ever kiss a friend: yeah
[.202.] are you still friends: does he being obsessed with me count?
[.203.] so moving along..do you smoke: yes
[.204.] do you smoke weed: ...dunno havent decided if i still do...used to tho
[.205.] ever trip on acid: no
[.206.] how about a little x: no sir
[.207.] crack, heroin, anything else: no sir
[.208.] beer good or beer bad: dont like beer
[.209.] are you the sissy who drinks wine coolers: fuck no they taste like shit
[.210.] do you like smirnoff ice: yea--triple black....not to get drunk tho
[.211.] prefer beer or liquor: liquor
[.212.] what kind of cigarettes do you smoke: Marlboro Reds....cowboy killers!
[.213.] have you ever drank Hpnotiq: No
[.214.] if yes, when was the last time you got some: n/a
W 0 U L D Y 0 U EVER..
[ .215. ] bungee jump: in a min
[ .216. ] sky dive: on my 21st bday
[ .217. ] swim with dolphins: yes
[ .218. ] scuba dive: yes
[ .219. ] go rock climbing: hell yea
[ .220. ] eat shit for $1,000,000: um no
[ .221. ] turn your back on your friends for personal gain: no
[ .222. ] steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: not intentionally
[ .223. ] cross-dress: yea, but its not like i dont do that on a normal basis being that im bi
[ .224. ] lie to the police: umm whoops
[ .225. ] run from the police: depends on what i did
[ .226. ] lie to your parents: yea
[ .227. ] walk up to a stranger and kiss them: if they were hot and were eye-ing me
[ .228. ] be an exotic dancer: as soon as i get the body figure i want
[ .229. ] walk out of a restaurant without paying: no
[ .230. ] streak: um...been there done that
Y 0 U R F R I E N D S
[.231.] best friends: what about him/her/they?
[.232.] known longest: Kristen
[.233.] wish you talked to more: the Kristen before that
[.234.] wish you saw more: evets
[.235.] how many friends do you think you have: clearly not enough for my personality
[.236.] who drives you insane after a while: brian....very quickly
[.237.] who can you stay around forever and never get sick of: evets
[.238.] ever lose a good friend because you took it to the 'next level': no
[.239.] craziest: baby boy
[.240.] loudest: beckerz
[.241.] shyest: evets
[.242.] best hair: umm...
[.243.] can always make you laugh: evets
[.244.] best eyes: dain
[.243.] best body: fucked if i kno...havent seen every part of everyones body you kno..
[.246.] most athletic: dain
[.247.] sex symbol: the first kristen
[.248.] hot tempered: the first kristen
[.249.] most impatient: me
[.250.] shortest: both kristens
[.251.] tallest: dain
[.252.] talented: what kind of talent?
[.253.] best singer: dain
[.254.] skinniest: ricci
[.255.] nicest: second kristen
[.256.] best personality: ....
[.257.] biggest drug user: first kristen
HAVE Y0U EVER:
[.258.] flashed someone: ah the olden days....too many have seen my tits
[.259.] told a person how you felt bout them: yes
[.260.] been to michigan: No
[.262.] gone to jail or juvi: no jus middle school..same shit different pile
[.263.] skateboarded: not well
[.264.] skinny dipped: hehe
[.265.] stolen anything: yes
[.266.] wanted to kick my ass for making this so long: kick it, no....smack u on the nose with a rolled up newspaper maybe
[.267.] kicked someone's ass: not really
[.268.] pegged someone in the head with a snowball: yea n she scratched me for it...with those polished fingernails/claws
[.269.] broke a beer bottle: yes
[.270.] gotten into a bar, under-aged: No
[.271.] kissed someone of the same sex: ....duh...
[.273.] gone on a road trip: Yes
[.274.] gone on vacation without adult supervision: no...not that lucky
[.275.] been to a concert: not a pro one
[.276.] been to another country: no
[.277.] talked back to an adult: every teacher/administrator/security guard at school
[.278.] got pulled over: ..no license...
[.279.] got in a car accident: no
[.280.] broke a law: yes...more than one
[.281.] given money to a homeless person: yes
[.282.] tried to kill yourself: *looks down shamefully* yes
[.283.] cried to get out of trouble: no
[.284.] kissed a friend's brother or sister: No
[.285.] kissed a brother or sisters friend: yes
[.286.] dropped something on the floor that you were cooking and let someone eat it anyways?: *no comment*
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| SATANISM |
[08 Jan 2005|05:39pm] |
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" SATANISM represents kindness to those who deserve it instead of love wasted on ingrates! You cannot love everyone; it is ridiculous to think you can. If you love everyone and everything you lose your natural powers of selection and wind up being a pretty poor judge of character and quality. If anything is used too freely it loses its true meaning. Therefore, the Satanist believes you should love strongly and completely those who deserve your love, but never turn the other cheek to your enemy! Love is one of the most intense emotions felt by man; another is hate. Forcing yourself to feel indiscriminate love is very unnatural. If you try to love everyone you only lessen your feelings for those who deserve your love. Repressed hatred can lead to many physical and emotional ailments. By learning to release your hatred towards those who deserve it, you cleanse yourself of these malignant emotions and need not take your pent-up hatred out on your loved ones. There has never been a great 'love' movement in the history of the world that hasn't wound up killing countless numbers of people, we must assume, to prove how much they loved them! Every hypocrite who ever walked the earth has had pockets bulging with love! Every pharisaical religionist claims to love his enemies, even though when wronged he consoles himself by thinking 'God will punish them.' Instead of admitting to themselves that they are capable of hating their foes and treating them in the manner they deserve, they say: 'There, but for the grace of God, go I,' and 'pray' for them. Why should we humiliate and lower ourselves by drawing such inaccurate comparisons? Satanism has been thought of as being synonymous with ruelty and brutality. This is so only because people are afraid to face the truth--and the truth is that human beings are not all benign or all loving. Just because the Satanist admits he is contrary, because he is able to give vent to his hatret through ritualized expression, he is far more capable of love--the deepest kind of love. By honestly recognizing and admitting to both the hate and the love he feels, there is no confusing one emotion with the other. Without being able to experience one of these emotions, you cannot fully experience the other."~ Anton Szandor LaVey
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| new poem...Sticks 'N Stones |
[06 Jan 2005|06:29pm] |
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Sticks and stones may break my bones
But words are like daggers piercing my heart
I want to stand upon a mountain high
And let my spirit take its flight
For what goes up must come down
The guardian angel's wings spread
Filling the air with light
It shines so brightly over my face
Sending a chill down my spine
Leaving me breathless
I take a deep breath and sigh
And remember what it was like
To hold my head high
Disregarding what is said
Looking to the future
The scars remain and remind
That some wounds never heal
And the past exists
Where hearts were shattered
And blood was shed
One day they'll see
If not understand
The pain they cause
And the impact it makes
Then they'll be victimized
When the sticks and stones break my bones
It nowhere near compares
To the burdens I carry
The anger I possess
And the suffering they've caused me
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| PW sucks |
[02 Jan 2005|09:28pm] |
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Nickelback "Never Again" |
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I don't know what it is, but there's something that keeps me from getting good grades in school. I mean, it's obvious that I don't have to work very hard to get the good grades, so why don't I? My mom keeps telling me that my sister has to work her ass off to be where she is in school; whereas, with me, I ould easily receive good grades if I just do the work. Now, I really want to go to college on my own terms, and beome a social worker, but based on my transcript so far, I'm thinking that I don't even have a chance in getting into a good college. Based on this, I do try my best in getting all my schoolwork done, but sometimes I lose sight of my ultimate goals and just say FUCK it, and don't care--which is what makes my grades come to a sudden drop. I don't know how to fix things so that this doesn't happen. I mean, it seems to be that I get so caught up in other things around me, that I shut everything else out of my mind and can't focus. I really am tired of this, of feeling this way. The only thing I can think to do about this is cut out all the extra stuff..but even then, how do I do that? I wish I could just take my classes with people who care more about doing their work than talking to their friends and spreading gossip..that's all PW students really do anyways. That seems to be where the problem is for me. It honestly feels like everyone but me at PW is immature and spends so much time worrying about their social life and reputation, that they could are less about those of us who feel different, let alone have feelings at all. I feel like I'm at a higher level than all of them..I don't mean that I'm better or superior to them, but I really think that they're not at the same maturity level as I. I can't seem to keep a steady group of friends who are my own age, or at PW period. My real true friends are the ones who aren't attending high school, they're either out in the world on their own, or in college. The majority of these friends (if they were still in high school,) would be considered "nerds" or "geeks" just because their biggest focus is on schoolwork and reaching their goals in life. That's me, and how I am, but I can't come out of this shell at PW because the majority of students, no I dare not exaggerate this, hate me for something they "heard". I hate PW so much. All the bullshit, all the gossip--it's ridiculous; and the whole reason for my not keeping up in school. It also has the biggest effect on my mental stability, or lack of. I don't know if I'm going to last another year at this school, let alone the rest of this year. I'm running out of options to keep me going strong and safe...Everytime someone is a bully to me, or rude, ignorant, whatever...I take it extremely personal because I've dealt with this since I was little..I've been the one who always gets picked on in school ever since I started attending school...I don't know how much more of this childish bullshit I can put up with anymore...They're pushing my limits and I'm so aware of how mentally unstable I am, that I can guarantee that something bad will happen very soon.
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I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is
[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand
[Chorus]
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
You fix yourself
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
[Chorus x2]
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| I'm A.... |
[28 Dec 2004|09:01pm] |
You're a sexy girl! You are beautiful, and you
love attention from guys, and are very
flirtatious. You might come off as a slut and
bitch to some but I think you have another side
to you that is pleading for attention, love, and
care. You might be confident on the outside but
don't be afraid to unleash a more sensitive
side. Be better than just the average sex
symbol.
What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
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| My Disorder |
[27 Dec 2004|06:21pm] |
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The world is cruel, fate is bitter and there's no
place for you anymore. Your thoughts can often
lead to, 'Why live when I feel like dying ?
Yours is an illness of sorrow.
What's Your Disorder ?
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| FORGIVENESS |
[25 Dec 2004|08:18pm] |
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Forgiveness
Darkness falls whenever we're together
But it feels as though we're getting closer
I don't understand what does it mean
I don't know what to do anymore
It's like you don't care what he might do
That you will do whatever because of me
I'm flattered, but I can't deal with this
This is too much for me to handle
I like you, but I feel like I love him
Does that mean I have to choose between you
Just because you and I might have a chance together
I have to follow my head and not my heart
You may get jealous because you like me
But you'll get over me, I promise
It might seem difficult, but that's life you know
So face the facts, and move on with your life
I don't mean to run from this problem
But in my opinion, this isn't running
It's simply keeping a relationship easy
And turning my confusion to clear results
I can't begin to tell you how hard this is
To explain my deepest thoughts and feelings
To be able to express them truly and from the heart
I am so sorry if this is bad news to you, forgive me
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